Friday, June 15, 2007
Our Beautiful, Intelligent Daughter is Gone
Our beautiful, intelligent, talented, fun-loving daughter has gone into the light. We are left with such heartache and sorrow, I cannot even express. Brianna fought so hard and was so couragous, but was unable to overcome injuries.
Yesterday, the doctors told us they were very concerned about neurological damage after her cardiac arrest. Their concern was heightened hours later when her pupils were unresponsive to light and she didn't respond to pain. They believe that on Wednesday, almost 24 hours after her heart stopped, her brain died.
A caring neurologist, the ICU doctor and the BMT doctors took us into a small room and told us that Brianna had undergone brain death. They based it on an EEG and a thorough exam. But we knew before they told us, this was the case. We stood in the room while the EEG was recording her brian waves, and there was no activity. As the neurologist told us, brain death means death. They believe her brain swelled from lack of oxygen and caused it to herniate down into her spinal column.
We came home last night to tell Trevor, and all of us will be going back to the hospital today to say good-bye. They wanted to give her more time, just in case. We prayed for a miracle. Her body is still on life support, and it's still her hands, her feet, her eyes, lips and hair. But you can see she is no longer there. I held her hand and put it up to my cheek, just to feel her touch again on my face. But she is gone. And today we will all gather around her. Later, they will take off the epinephrine that is keeping her heart pumping.
It wasn't supposed to end like this and a huge hole has been cut from our hearts. Trevor has missed her for the past few months, only seeing her while she was on 2North. But today he too wants to see her and say good-bye. My sister and brother, mom and dad, Jim and Mary, and Joyce will surround her with love.
I will never hear her voice again or see her laugh, or hug and hold her. She will be in our hearts forever. Each day is a gift. Don't take anything for granted. Hug your children, and tell them you love them. I will post the date and time of our precious daughter's funeral.